inside jamari fox
inside jamari fox - taking you real deep
i deleted everything.
first step….
i cleaned out my entire phone.
i erased any reminders of the past.
i did an all around refresh.
it was time to officially move on.
i mean i been saying it,
but i wasn’t putting action towards progress.
i erased everything out of my gratitude journal,
cleaned out all my notes,
made a whole new vision board,
and said a quick prayer after i was done.
“god.
i’m grateful for all that i’ve been through.
i know you took me through so i could learn.
if it wasn’t for you,
i wouldn’t be here right now.
please help me start over.
allow all the things that are not good for me to vanish quietly.
allow me to be stronger and ready for battle.
change me for the better.
amen.”
the hardest part is starting over.
that unknown is an absolute mind fuck.
the things you were comfortable with are a bitch to remove.
i realized something tho.
things we were comfortable with can suddenly get uncomfortable.
that is why i needed a new start.
i was way too distracted with someone else.
someone that probably wasn’t good for me.
i had to see it for myself.
so i’ve wiped the slate clean.
“goodbye” can often times start a “hello”.
…oh and i found a therapist.
the appointment is tomorrow after work.
an older snow vixen.
the issue is if she takes my insurance.
wish me luck?