inside jamari fox inside jamari fox - taking you real deep
i’m not really interested in this whole kanye west debacle.
he always seems to have these “moments” when something of his is about to drop.
like i said on twitter:
When he is being hauled off to the mental,
call me.
for someone like him,
he needs to be on meds for his outbursts.
if he isn’t taking his meds,
this is the outcome that will happen all the time.
how do i know?
well i want to be completely transparent with the foxhole tonight.
we share so much with each other,
but i want to lay something on the table…
Mi suffers with bipolar,
schizophrenia,
and BPD.
when i was anonymous,
i wanted to separate a lot of me from this website.
she isn’t my cousin…
Mi is my sister.
when our parentals died,
we were both separated to different places.
i was way too young to try and take care of her.
many of the adults around us saw dollar signs,
so they all fought for who would take her in.
we were supposed to go to miami with my uncle,
but he played us and changed his mind at the last minute.
her side of the family didn’t want her to go to babrados with my side of the family.
i think if she went to live there,
she would have turned out to be a different person tbh.
mi has suffered a lot in her young life.
i don’t know if being exposed to so much triggered something.
we both stayed at her aunt’s crib for a minute and she was fine then.
once i left to find my own way,
she went completely left.
her aunt allowed her to do whatever she wanted,
had her with big money in the forests,
and spoiled her because she was “light skin and pretty“.
she started fuckin with drug dealers,
drinking excessively,
and didn’t listen to anything an adult told her.
when she came to live with me,
i thought it would be us reunited and being able to live as a unit.
as you know,
she tried to kill me in here.
At that time,
I didn’t know she had various mental health issues at hand.
mi and i are totally estranged these days.
she has her own spot now,
but by updates,
she has many manic moments because she won’t take her medication.
she self medicates with alcohol/weed and was a petty thief.
just two months ago,
she was put into the institution again.
She was stripping naked in the streets and trying to jump in front cars in moving traffic.
Her cousins had to haul her back to hurt aunt’s spot.
Once she got there,
she was crying,
screaming,
and talking to the tv.
after a few days of not doing anything they asked her to do at the institution,
she was able to ask for release since they can’t keep her in there.
i get updates from family members who either coddle her or at their wits end.
the positive is she has been taking her meds and seeing a therapist.
she always tries to reach out to me over the years,
but i decline the connection each time.
even with family,
when i’m done with you,
i’m done.
last month,
i finally responded and let her know that i’m fine where our relationship is right now.
i’ll be praying for her and i hope she takes care of herself out here.
i don’t know when or if that will change since she does well and then spiral backwards.
its very similar to how kanye is acting.
if this is all legit with kanye in this recent situation,
he is having a manic episode.
i watched a video someone sent me of mi doing the same.
she was rambling in the mirror,
going off on people who weren’t there.
i watched that video on repeat like 20 times.
“Wow,
this is my sister.”
if kanye is anything like mi,
he won’t take his meds so he’ll have outbursts like this.
i hope one day mi and he will get it together.
lowkey: i felt it was the perfect time to be honest about that.
all of my friends had a front row seat with what i went through with mi.
it was and is still sad to me how things ended up with us.
the truth about bipolar disorder and what it means to (mi) jamari fox
