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if it came out that george floyd was gay,
had a gay porn past,
and was at the gay club every weekend faithfully:
Would the straight black community be marching and protesting for his death?
would they have burned down whole cities for police brutality?
i can font without a doubt that i couldn’t see it.
call me pessimistic,
but there are layers within the black community that aren’t being confronted.
it’s a similar action to how it is in some of our families.
“don’t talk about it and it’ll go away“.
big mama and nem will fight to get our crackhead cousin clean,
but don’t want to acknowledge they’re on crack at the dinner table.
“I don’t want to hear about your cousin Jean.
Just give him the money and I’ll continue to pray he gets his life together.”
have we discussed how toxic black christianity can be…?
this current climate blew the lid of the segregation within the black community.
folks want to sit down at the cookout table and talk about the issues,
but there are starting to be a few whispers now that things are dying down.
a foxholer sent me these two videos from black gays voicing their concerns…
billy porter (pose) had a lengthy video:
#blacklivesmatter #blacktranslivesmattersidebar: how can someone be “black lives matter” with a white spouse?
isn’t that another form of “all lives matter”?
honestly,
what they both said is a discussion.
it’s truth.
one of my gifts and curses is being the rebellious cousin who calls shit out,
but doesn’t want to get involved or be bothered with the fake family image.
i still come around but i’ve dealt with shit within each community.
that helps me to see all sides and understand each view points so i get the complaints.
some black gays have realized they’re the distant cousins as well.
the ones who call to see “who is gonna be there?” before every family gathering.
some don’t want to be bothered with protesting because of how they’re treated.
is that wrong?
It’s no secret how cruel some black straights,
male and female,
can be to black gays and the trans community.
like the straight blacks,
we want to still be desperately included by our oppressors.
the same oppsessors we need to stand beside when a black life matters.
it doesn’t help that some black gays and trans can be very problematic too.
it’s starting to look like everyone is fuckin’ problematic tbh.
while some of our white neighbors are starting to acknowledge their parts,
the black community needs to take accountability in our roles with each other too.
we act like this big happy family that looks good on paper,
but each one of us has been oppressed by one (or more) of our skin-folk.
like a family filled with un-resolved drama and generational curses,
if we don’t acknowledge this,
we will implode.
How can we be in the fight and fighting with each other?
it’s all a mess.
everyone has this “on the low” beef,
but in times of crisis,
we are forced to show up as a family.
When will we actually sit down as this “family” and discuss?
low-key: listen,
i worked at a black company and faced worst abuse that i ever did at a white company
are the abusive toxic blacks in black companies gonna be called out or…?
this fantasy that black folks work better together,
or even look out for each other,
is sorta bullshit.
the big unhappy, but we need to stand with each other, family that is the black community jamari fox