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“Social media isn’t real.”
that was the words from one of my good friends,
yha mourhia wright.
she has been on my podcast before and we have gotten really close during this lock down.
Can I be honest with the foxhole with something?
No matter if it sounds silly…
so today,
on my personal ig,
i threw up this pic for my family and “friends”…
on my personal ig,
i haven’t been on there for close to 3 weeks.
i thought it was a nice shot to let folks know i wasn’t dead.
the foxhole has taken up all my attention because i feel more fed here.
i talk to so many in dms and my stuff gets retweeted/liked/commented on.
my readers show me more love than some people i know/are related to.
i realized…
Some folks don’t fuck with me as I thought they did.
just because i show up to support folks doesn’t mean they will do the same for me.
“the popular kids” i know get all the love tho.
those same folks will run to the popular kids and be in comments and likes.
My problem is I have way too many expectations for others I know on social media.
you post your highlight reels and folks will eat them up.
even if they’re lies or masks that are hiding depression and anxiety underneath.
you post your truths and you’re shunned.
you stop posting on social media for a break and you’re un-followed .
So what do you post?
clearly,
if you aren’t one of the popular ones in your life,
you aren’t getting shit.
they want you to show up to their events or watch their productions,
but they can’t show up for you.
this is why i’m so private with the foxhole because i feel i won’t get support.
it’s one of the reasons i stay in this forest i’ve created.
the foxhole makes me feel wanted.
i bet if i put up a pic standing next to issa rae or rihanna…
Is it real “love” tho?
its all bullshit.
i needed to get that off my chest.
it was bugging me.
thanks for reading.
“oh heeeeyyyyyyy! you aren’t in my algorithms so i didn’t see you!” jamari fox