inside jamari fox inside jamari fox - taking you real deep
hopefully,
someone can relate with this.
if not,
thanks for reading.
some folks might think some of us are crazy.
they can’t fathom that it’s hard for us to:
get into a relationship
feel like we’re attractive
be our most confident
we check all boxes of “having it together” on the outside,
but if only folks knew that we suffer in silence. .
one of my favs on twitter fonted the other day...
Why is so easy for some to get into a relationship compared to others?
…and for the life of me,
i don’t understand why it’s so difficult for me.
star fox could get into relationships with other males easy.
hell,
he had his ex obsessed with him even after they parted.
i attracted more vixens.
i meet vixens who will flirt with me wearing a wedding ring.
star fox never attracted any vixens so i had to wonder…
Did I miss the gay secret language class that the other gay males learned to get the good meat?
back when i was younger,
i was told stories of how others met gay males,
especially dl ones.
they made it seem like these wolves had no issue hittin on them in public.
like,
they were walking in the forests,
do some eye contact,
and would get the number easy.
gays on social media make it seem that way too.
i feel like no one notices me.
for other gay males,
it seems so much easier.
growing up,
i’ve always felt that way.
i was sitting with some of my co-workers today.
one of the vixens mentioned:
“every time i come by your desk,
it’s a posse.
it’s like i gotta take a number to talk to you.
you attract people to you like a magnet.”
yeah,
vixens.
i have some wolves talk to me,
even the models who have come in,
but they’re mostly straight.
so i responded to her:
“really?
i feel invisible on most occasions.”
they scoffed and looked at me like i was crazy.
i’m not mad i have great energy thats attractive,
but it seems misdirected.
i attract vixens,
but i’m not attracted to women.
i’m like the popular one who commits suicide,
but folks are baffled why i did it.
i feel how that popular one feels on the inside.
lowkey: is it wrong to feel like some gay males can attract any male to them?
is it wrong to want power to do that?
or does that power come with a price?