inside jamari fox inside jamari fox - taking you real deep
most of us can’t hold down one (or more) of the following:
jobs
money
relationships
friendships
we’ll turn up our noses at someone else’s struggles,
but forget we have struggles in other areas too.
“What about that male that just dropped you?
You just met him and after 2 months,
you are single again and looking for a new relationship.”
“What about that money you spent so frivolously?”
“what about yet another friendship that’s ended?
All these ex-friends have the same story about you…”
so i have another job that is probably on it’s last legs.
a side of me didn’t want to post about it.
i share pretty much everything,
but i was embarrassed about potentially being unemployed again.
it’s like being embarrassed about flexing about your relationship,
but it ends because your partner was cheating.
a foxholer,
who i don’t know if was being shady or not,
pointed out how i can’t hold down a job.
while it stung a little,
as i was insecure about it lowkey,
it allowed me to take a step back to figure shit out…
a majority of my jobs were temp to perm positions.
the job where i met work wolf,
i was there for 3 years.
i worked my tail off to prove i was a great worker,
but they allowed greed to take over.
as much as it sucked that it ended,
but i wanted to move on anyway.
shortly after,
the great white wolf got me a job at his company.
that was a direct hire.
that position ended in about a month.
it definitely wasn’t a good fit.
honestly,
i hated everything about it.
after that,
i went to another “temp to perm” assignment that lasted a full year.
it was a massive pay cut,
but i enjoyed how relaxed it was.
i was told from my supervisor i should be hired within 6 months.
they had some drama being the supervisors and another associate,
they switched all of our positions and i was thrown into a role that sucked.
come to find out,
that supervisor tells everyone they’d be hired and never comes through.
they have a high turnover rate there for that reason.
my head huntress found me a job in tech being an office manager.
it was “temp with the possibility of hire”.
i loved it.
it was in the middle of soho too.
i had freedom to do what i wanted with a lot more responsibilies.
this was the first job that i ever felt blatant racism.
the big bosses from canada took one look at me and said “NOPE”.
they wanted a blonde.
that lasted 3 weeks.
currently,
i’m at a new “temp to perm” position.
the duties are cool,
but they are really inefficient and the flexibility sucks.
they are super cheap too.
they don’t hire temps if i’m out,
so i’m literally chained to that desk like a slave.
this job is not a good fit because my supervisor and her assistant make it so.
if they were gone,
i think the position would actually be better.
at all of my jobs,
my co workers like me and my work ethic is always praised.
i could understand i was awful.
usually,
these jobs are never good fits for me.
living in a “at will” state is a whole piece of aggravation.
i know folks with degrees that deal with this too.
i applaud those that found their right fit.
at each of these failed jobs tho,
i learn something and take a new skill along with me.
that’s the added benefit for my resume.
other than that,
these are just “bartending jobs” for me as i pursue my dreams.
lowkey: things are often reasons,
seasons,
and lifetimes.