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“nobody’s coming.”
i saw that quote today and it was some real shit.
one of those type of quotes that is a blunt reality.
most of us are waiting for:
a prince charming
“things to change”
a cavalry to come and wreak havoc on those who hurt us
the truth is they ain’t coming.
nobody is coming to help or rescue you.
i learned that with my life and even with the foxhole…
there were so many folks from my past who i met with connections.
these were folks i met or knew.
i reached out,
told them i had a blog,
let them know how much stats i had,
and my desires to be indepedent.
they often bragged about who they knew or what skills they possesed.
without bending over something,
or putting my lips on a dick,
i thought they were being legit genuine.
“I’LL HELP!”
…and i believed it.
why?
they never came through.
they strung me along or they vanished all together.
many of them weren’t as “big” as they claimed.
others chose to assist another that treated like pure hell.
it was pretty fucked up,
but i learned that no one might help me find my way.
i may have to do it all on my own.
from the bottom of the valley low,
i’ll have to climb to the top off my own.
that may sound pessimistic,
but when i look back at my life,
i got to this point by my own.
i wasn’t lucky to have a mommy and daddy with nepotism.
i’m not white.
my skin color doesn’t grant me success.
i had to struggle hard and face some real shit.
jackals were trying to destroy me from the inside out.
thank God i had my friends teach me shit my parents never did.
i learned to do my own resumes,
build experience at jobs,
all while falling down a whole bunch of times.
i often wish i had just one big connection,
but i’m tired of being a stupid fox living in fantasies.
Some people do not care to help me
i hope i never become someone who doesn’t help others.
even if i don’t have a connection for them,
i hope i can offer helpful advice.
i made a vow i’ll never help those who dismissed me.
personally,
i’d prefer them to suffer.
God is still working on me.
foxhole…
don’t wait around for anyone to rescue you.
this is not to font someone won’t be genuine and merciful,
but..