inside jamari fox
inside jamari fox - taking you real deep
there are certain things that i never think would have to me.
i mean,
a fox has been through a lot,
but certain things are not on my “shit that would happen to me” list.
that would include:
breaking my leg on a ski jump
a freak accident while alligator wrestling
my new career as a “fire eater” backfires
well something on my “list’ happened and i’m in so much pain today…
i got up and was extra tired.
like,
drained.
i damn near slept walked into the shower.
so i’m lathering myself up and i literally dropped the soap.
i see why that’s so dangerous in the big house.
as i went to pick it up,
i slipped and it was almost like slow motion.
my legs are up in the air,
i land smack dad on the side of my tub,
and i hit my head when i landed.
i literally had the wind knocked out of me.
i instantly rose up out of that doom and was legit crying.
i was in complete shock and that shit hurt so bad.
i’m thankful it wasn’t worse than it was.
i checked to see if any bones were sticking out of me.
i hit my ribs as i was falling.
i could move,
but i was in a lot of pain.
here i am
i have no health insurance and can’t afford another doctor’s bill.
after researching online,
the doctor will tell me that it has to heal.
unless it hit an organ,
then it would be a cause for a panic.
the fact i put on my clothes and went to work,
that is usually a good sign.
it may take 4-6 weeks to heal.
that is where my depression has come in at.
this was not part of my plan,
but life has a way of going completely left field on me.
lowkey: what depresses me is how alone i feel.
i don’t have anyone to come rescue me when shit happens.
i don’t have health insurance and literally playing russian roulette.
i feel like a loser.