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Hey Jamari,
first let me say that I absolutely love, love, love your site. I feel a lot of us can connect with you on different levels, but I’m in a situation and in desperate need of some advice from you and the other wolves/foxes. So I’ve been in a relationship with my wolf for 5 years, going on six. We have two cubs 12 and 1, both boys. SN:Another story…The relationship has seen more ups and downs than I can count. Numerous countless affairs and a side he jackal, all on his part. The he devil werewolf inside of me wanted to cum out and play and get revenge, well within my rights, but that’s not my style; karma is a BITCH!!!!! Anyway, as the fox in the relationship, I’ve always been giving and loyal. Even to his son from a previous relationship, the 12 yr old. I’ve always been the one to keep a roof over our heads, car, and just barely getting by in general. I’ve always been the bread winner in this relationship. We’ve been in situations where neither one of us were working, and just when we thought things were about to blow up in smoke, a better job comes along. Now he’s not had a stable job since we’ve been together, it’s been all me. Now I’ve been blessed with another job and highly compensated for it. Well recently I bought him a car, BMW. I didn’t pay much for it but it’s for him, he hasn’t had a car in 5 years. My car just broke down and it’s time for another. It just seems like he is jealous because of the money I make, the car I’m about to buy. Anything this man wants he goes out and gets. No questions asked on my part. But he tells me, that it seems like I’m calling all the shots, and it’s not what he wants, but what I want. I asked him since when does he not get what he wants!!! Is that not the most selfish statement someone can say to their lover that’s been holding him and his son down for 5 years???? I’m so angry because I’m feeling like I’m dealing with a 31 year old immature, unappreciative child. I’m 32 myself. I’m just getting to the point where I have the I don’t care attitude, and the unhappy face. And my face is very attractive. Beyond that I’m still deeply in love with him, im just at this point and I don’t want to be at this point. It seems like we have these disputes, and I’m always the one that has to bring him back to reality. I have to call him out on his bullshit, or else he would act like nothing happened, and I’m left feeling like shit. The sad thing is Jamari, he’ll want to have these pillow talks at 3 in the morning talking about ” it just seems like you’re unhappy, you don’t really smile anymore “. Like a sad puppy. I’ve chased this man for almost six years for him to see who and what I am to him. I know he sees it and realizes, but he got a funny way of showing it. Honestly, I’m at the point of OVER IT. how can we change things, I’m tired of talking. Tired of fussing and cussing…. I’m worn down. Can I just get a REAL wolf to appreciate what I do, and knows how to handle his. I’m just like you in the things I want from a wolf. Just be a grown man.
MY ANSWER…
this a good one.
never had a foxmail like this before.
before i start:
you need ^this.
thank you for the compliment as well.
so you know how my 2016 went?
that last job
work wolf
mi
other situations i dealt with
they were all about me doing the most,
chasing,
and trying to make shit work.
i was told countless times to leave/end all those situations.
i was judged for my decisions to stay,
but i felt if i held on a little tighter,
things would get better.
well my self esteem was wrecked,
my energy was off,
and i was miserable.
well as 2016 went on,
God ultimately stepped in and cleared things out.
some of it happened real fast.
it left me crying and begging.
i spent many days alone,
weekends in bed,
and just feeling depressed af.
i watched myself get thrown to the side and easily replaced.
it stung and left me questioning myself.
there is always a plan
my old boss ruined his reputation how he did me,
mi regrets how she treated me,
work wolf is back to the square one,
and other situations ended for my betterment.
i’m not 100%,
but i’m getting back to where i need to be.
reader…
it’s easy for me to tell you to leave.
in a perfect world,
you would have been gone a long time ago.
from the outside looking in,
YOU do more for him than he is doing for you.
YOU chase
YOU buy
YOU work
YOU hurt
YOU
YOU
YOU
YOU have become his emotional punching bag.
YOU are being abused and taken advantage of.
YOU are losing while he is winning.
until God has to step in,
which i feel he has at various points,
then YOU will be ready to go.
it won’t be easy.
you will miss him and the cubs terribly.
change and starting over is a scary thing.
guess what?
it has to happen.
if he decides to throw you out,
slam the door,
and change the locks,
then you will have to start over.
so you have to decide what you want to do.
grow old before you time,
dealing with an ain’t shit “wolf turned jackal”,
or take the first step and do what you need to do for you.
you can do bad all by yourself.
it’s time to start weighing the pros and cons of this relationship.
before a real wolf can come,
you need to heal from the past one.
Are you ready?
2016 is where things ended for many of us.
2017 is the year of new beginnings.
if you survived this year then consider yourself blessed.
reader,
please keep me posted!
think about YOU for once.
i’m sure the foxhole has some stuff to say as well.
best,
jamari fox
lowkey: this foxmail made me sad.
praying for em.
f0xmail: I’m Sleeping With A Wolf Turned Jackal! Help!
Jamari Fox