inside jamari fox
inside jamari fox - taking you real deep
i don’t think i could ever lose my kindness.
i don’t want to.
i am strong,
but i’m very sensitive to others.
so i was sitting at my desk waiting for some files from another department.
it was taking a while to arrive…
they ended up being delivered by an older vixen that i just met.
she is new to the company and very nice.
by our first conversation,
we hit it off.
i was my regular self and she was drawn to me.
well when she got to me desk,
she started to choke up.
i was thinking to myself i didn’t need the files that bad.
she turned her head and she started to cry.
at this point,
everyone in my department was watching.
a few even walked away.
she kept apologizing for showing this emotion,
but i got up and started to comfort her.
she didn’t want to talk about it,
but i could see the pain in her eyes.
she told me how she was going through a tough legal situation with her ex husband.
he was hitting below the belt and it has been taking a toll on her.
i got her some tissues,
gave her some advice,
and told her to get it out.
you have to get all the tears and emotions out before you can move on.
i’ve been there and still there over some things/people.
i still get sad over the past,
but i’m not as bad as i was.
well she pulled it together,
hugged me,
and thanked me for listening.
i told her she got this.
i’m more shocked everyone else didn’t react the way i did.
i guess it’s better to watch this older vixen break down than assist.
i went to check on her later on the day,
but she ended up leaving early.
i’ll check in tomorrow.
i have my “he-bitch” moments,
but it takes nothing to be kind.
i’m not perfect,
but i’m definitely not Satan.
we all need a shoulder when it gets tough.
i’m blessed with great friends,
and a huge foxhole,
when i’m down and out.
others don’t have that luxury so it’s best to pay it forward.
i don’t like the idea of someone suffering in silence.
i will continue to be this fox.
i will also continue to channel my “he-bitch”,
because a healthy balance is needed,
but i won’t let it make me bitter and mean.
i see what that can do to people.
i will admit that i give my kindness to the wrong ones at times,
but i have always received blessings because of it.
learn to pay it forward.
